How I feel!!!!!

Here lately has been pretty tough for me just with school, friends, family, and just pretty much everything. The one thing I let get to me the most is not having my best friend anymore. She was the only person I could talk to about anything. I'm the type of girl who likes to be left alone and kind of to herself but with her I wasn't like that. We have been friends since 7th grade, until now. We still talk at school but don't even look at each other in public. I ask myself everyday " why do you even talk to her at school?" Just because she was your best friend and she let a boy get in between us! Deep down inside i'm so angry with her and I just want to yell at her and tell her how I feel but I can't just because I care about her so much. I guess it just feels good to talk to her for the little amount of time I get to at school. Also, this is our senior year and we don't even talk like we used to and when we graduate I will probably never see or talk to her again. But that's how I feel inside but I just try to ignore and go on with my life.